writing year in review [2024]
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> see previous years here
> spans jan 1, 2024 - dec 30, 2024
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favorite closing line(s):
learn how to face it
favorite lines from the other two:
i know you get déjà vu
as I watched you
looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?
less!! i didn't have any delusions about last year's wc being representative of what i'm capable of but this year was somehow worse than 2022... i think 2024 involved a lot of content consumption for me, which was probably very helpful for my work-life balance, but i'm too prideful to just sit here and be happy about that, you know? i still can't get over the fact that i didn't fill a single prompt for the ficathon last winter. but trying to write was like squeezing that last little bit of toothpaste out of the tube.
events you participated in this year:
no 17hols and no dgf. and because i didn't even write for it, no ficathon!! the good thing is that 2025 will have 17hols and likely dgf although i really should have started planning for dgf by now... T____T i love to participate in the indie (ie. f/f and het) fests but i have to consider if it is Value Adding.
your own favorite piece from this year:
learn how to face it, not that there was much competition, and it's not perfect, but it conveys exactly what i wanted out of the story, with the help of the commentary. these days i'm thinking a lot about how easy it is for losers to plagiarize writing, and i can't help but think it would be pointless to read that fic devoid of its identity as a gone girl jiho tonyang omgeol post-renewal fic. that makes me even happier... i don't care if there are less than ten people on earth that fully understand the context!
fic recommendations from this year's reads:
honorable mention to Fish in the water by miuyi (rainiest) which was of course already on my 2020 favorites list but released chapter 2 in 2024!!
2024:
goals:
january 2024 risa don't make me laugh... what i have realized is i haven't written a fic of length from a "male" perspective for a long time. i think it's just hard these days to project onto men. thematically most of my writing is about aging and not meeting your goals and loneliness and incompatibility and i don't really think rps svt or f1 have a lot of these stories in a way that i care to talk about. but you know what... there's exceptions to everything!
so i don't really think i accomplished any of these goals as written but the intention of the goals stayed with me throughout the year, and i think they were useful.
2025:
goals:
this is essentially the contrapositive of a goal from 2022: "be happy with everything that you post". i think it's a really important challenge for me because year on year my unhappiness comes from seeing half-baked work on my various pages, and i don't like taking things down because i still see value in them, and as a reader or watcher i'm always sad to see something i like taken down just because the creator didn't think it was perfect. but i generally struggle to believe that posting nothing is better than posting something when it comes to events or "providing" niche fic. i need this to drive my writing instead of the idea of having posted something specific, and i want it to push me to put more effort into what i write, and to have more patience with it.
everything really comes down to my ego. but at the end of the day, why would i do anything that i do if not for that, right!
> spans jan 1, 2024 - dec 30, 2024
# OF AO3 FICS: 3 (▲1)
# OF AO3 WORDS: 4.3k (▼12.0k)
# OF DW FICS: 0 (▼5)
# OF DW WORDS: 0k (▼4.4k)
# OF TOTAL WORDS: 4.3k (▼16.4k)
# OF AO3 WORDS: 4.3k (▼12.0k)
# OF DW FICS: 0 (▼5)
# OF DW WORDS: 0k (▼4.4k)
# OF TOTAL WORDS: 4.3k (▼16.4k)
WORK SUMMARY
SVT/PRISTIN 1 (=)
OH MY GIRL 1 (▲1)
ITZY 1 (▲1)
LE SSERAFIM 0 (▼1)
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17HOLS, DREAM GIRLS FEST, ORIGINAL 0
OH MY GIRL 1 (▲1)
ITZY 1 (▲1)
LE SSERAFIM 0 (▼1)
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17HOLS, DREAM GIRLS FEST, ORIGINAL 0
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learn how to face it
yubin/jiho, 1731
ggjb round 4, march
i know you get déjà vu
seungcheol/nayoung, 1582
igff 2024, july
as I watched you
chaeryeong/ryujin, 1001
ftr disc two, july
yubin/jiho, 1731
ggjb round 4, march
i know you get déjà vu
seungcheol/nayoung, 1582
igff 2024, july
as I watched you
chaeryeong/ryujin, 1001
ftr disc two, july
LINES
favorite closing line(s):
learn how to face it
Yubin sighs. “Every year that goes by I know less of what to say to you.” Her uselessly sentimental heart barely knows where to start. Thank you, or I’ll miss you, or—
Jiho places her hand over Yubin’s. “It’s okay. I already know.”
Jiho places her hand over Yubin’s. “It’s okay. I already know.”
favorite lines from the other two:
i know you get déjà vu
The article went into some detail about how they’d met ages ago during their groups’ promotions, which in those early days always seemed to dovetail like it was fated. It was kind of romantic when you put it that way; and it wasn’t some anonymous source telling them that they’d met through a ‘mutual friend’. Everyone knew better than that, anyway. Nayoung wasn’t learning anything she didn’t already know, reading this. It was just some kind of morbid curiosity she was trying to sedate.
Nayoung lied flat on her couch after that and tried not to think about anything.
Nayoung lied flat on her couch after that and tried not to think about anything.
as I watched you
It was honestly better for a girl in her circumstances not to think about those other possibilities. Any modifier you wanted to add would make it even worse. An aspiring idol in her teens who couldn’t stop thinking about another girl. A girl in her twenties who didn’t know how to stop dreaming.
QUESTIONS
looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?
less!! i didn't have any delusions about last year's wc being representative of what i'm capable of but this year was somehow worse than 2022... i think 2024 involved a lot of content consumption for me, which was probably very helpful for my work-life balance, but i'm too prideful to just sit here and be happy about that, you know? i still can't get over the fact that i didn't fill a single prompt for the ficathon last winter. but trying to write was like squeezing that last little bit of toothpaste out of the tube.
events you participated in this year:
no 17hols and no dgf. and because i didn't even write for it, no ficathon!! the good thing is that 2025 will have 17hols and likely dgf although i really should have started planning for dgf by now... T____T i love to participate in the indie (ie. f/f and het) fests but i have to consider if it is Value Adding.
your own favorite piece from this year:
learn how to face it, not that there was much competition, and it's not perfect, but it conveys exactly what i wanted out of the story, with the help of the commentary. these days i'm thinking a lot about how easy it is for losers to plagiarize writing, and i can't help but think it would be pointless to read that fic devoid of its identity as a gone girl jiho tonyang omgeol post-renewal fic. that makes me even happier... i don't care if there are less than ten people on earth that fully understand the context!
fic recommendations from this year's reads:
starlight by lachrymosy
suzy/jinyoung
two remixes for the mountains unfurl by elliebell (Naladot):
Stars blow down in showers by miissedappointments,
& if you, if i by fractalkiss
wwjn
Island in the Sun by miuyi (rainiest)
jngchl
Blood in the Water by ions
f1 c2
yet again, the jugular by pursuit (iverins)
f1 3110
suzy/jinyoung
two remixes for the mountains unfurl by elliebell (Naladot):
Stars blow down in showers by miissedappointments,
& if you, if i by fractalkiss
wwjn
Island in the Sun by miuyi (rainiest)
jngchl
Blood in the Water by ions
f1 c2
yet again, the jugular by pursuit (iverins)
f1 3110
honorable mention to Fish in the water by miuyi (rainiest) which was of course already on my 2020 favorites list but released chapter 2 in 2024!!
GOALS
2024:
goals:
write f1 fic in some capacity (500 words is acceptable!)
use more incisive language - if not metaphorical, use key moments to spell out feeling in contrast to the ambiguity of the rest of the fic
lean into toxicity in the context of character study
use more incisive language - if not metaphorical, use key moments to spell out feeling in contrast to the ambiguity of the rest of the fic
lean into toxicity in the context of character study
january 2024 risa don't make me laugh... what i have realized is i haven't written a fic of length from a "male" perspective for a long time. i think it's just hard these days to project onto men. thematically most of my writing is about aging and not meeting your goals and loneliness and incompatibility and i don't really think rps svt or f1 have a lot of these stories in a way that i care to talk about. but you know what... there's exceptions to everything!
so i don't really think i accomplished any of these goals as written but the intention of the goals stayed with me throughout the year, and i think they were useful.
2025:
goals:
don't post things you aren't happy with
this is essentially the contrapositive of a goal from 2022: "be happy with everything that you post". i think it's a really important challenge for me because year on year my unhappiness comes from seeing half-baked work on my various pages, and i don't like taking things down because i still see value in them, and as a reader or watcher i'm always sad to see something i like taken down just because the creator didn't think it was perfect. but i generally struggle to believe that posting nothing is better than posting something when it comes to events or "providing" niche fic. i need this to drive my writing instead of the idea of having posted something specific, and i want it to push me to put more effort into what i write, and to have more patience with it.
everything really comes down to my ego. but at the end of the day, why would i do anything that i do if not for that, right!
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Date: Fri, Jan. 3rd, 2025 04:13 pm (UTC)also i like your color scheme!
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Date: Fri, Jan. 17th, 2025 02:46 am (UTC)thank you for commenting!! i hope we can both write with motivation this year :)